
Originally Posted by
SA Friday
When you're there and pulling missions outside the wire a couple times a week, your "Oh Shit" file in your brain gets moved to the front of the filing cabinet. It takes a long time to refile that info back a little and relax. To this day, I sometimes see shit on the side of the road as I'm driving by and catch myself thinking about secondary identifiers, initiator markers, anyone by the road with a cell phone in their ear... Shit like that. It's not as bad as it was, but it's still there. It's how the high level of tension/stress at the time can rewire you so strong it's hard to get rid of. I really don't want a reminder of that level of tension.