Thanks badshot, and i think i'm begining to understand what you guys mean, and i do need to express myself more clearly.

I definatly will get lotsa practice with the pistol i will be getting, whichever one i choose, and i will show up to some of those matches to see how you guys do stuff.

I dont want to carry just to look cooler or anything like that, it's just that i believe strongly in defending myself and that their are lots of idiots out they're that would kill for 20$.

Thanks for all the information guys i do appriciate it and i do hope i have not rubbed off the wrong impression. I am somone open to learning since thats somthing that one should never be done with.