Every once in a while a member makes a post describing a problem they're going through and requests prayers and good vibes to help.

After procrastinating a couple of days now it's my turn.

I have MS.

Around the end of March I started feeling dizzy. Eventually it got so bad I landed in the hospital. unable to stand, had to crawl. sitting stationary in a chair felt like I was on a carnival ride. Made studying for school impossible.

While I was in the hospital I told my folks that I'd rather lose a leg than feel like that all the time. Well, God heard me.

Around last week the dizziness and vertigo abated, but my left leg went numb, followed by my right. The right is not as bad, just good enough to walk, very slowly and arduously, with a cane. My left foot wants to point down all the time. I know the calf muscle is cramping but I can't feel it. So, when I walk I have to rotate the left leg to the side with each step, because the toe is pointed down and I don't have the strength to lift it up far enough to take a forward step I'm pretty close to needing a wheelchair.

At this point my body from chest down is numb, as are my arms from elbow to hand. I can study for school, but I can barely write. Getting to class is a real chore.

The nearest appointment I could get with a neurologist was the end of July, and everything will be out of pocket as I do not have health insurance. (that is a whole other, long story that I'll get into later) Being a single, middle aged male I don't qualify for squat from the government, thought I was able to get a handicapped parking tag.

On top of that, the treatment for MS flare ups is usually IV steroids like solumedrol, that for some reason with me inflame my pancreas. This causes excruciating pancreatitis and usually lands me in the hospital as pancreatitis can be life threatening.

I'm a man of faith, and I've had prayers answered before so if you can spare a moment please say one for me, I sure could use it. I'm in a bad way and I have a long haul ahead, and it's been hard the last couple of days to keep my spirits up. My biggest fear is a bad fall.

I'm not alone. My parents have been a great help to me. They are covering my bills. But they are getting up there in years and being a burden (they wouldn't call me that, but I feel like it) on them breaks my heart.

If you can stand up and walk across the room, count your blessings. I've been counting mine as well, even though I have hardship I'm not in terrible pain and for that I'm thankful.

I know others here are having tough times, financial problems, divorces, etc. I'll be praying for you, please do likewise for me. All you atheists just think a happy thought and put out some positive vibes for me.

When I finally get to see the doc, maybe treatments will help me improve, maybe they won't. I just had to post this because today was a low point for me.

Tomorrow will be better, I've already decided.