I totally understand that- but the last fight I was in (last year- I think about this time too) was the first fight in a very very long time... It was unavoidable as I got into a verbal altercation when he grabbed me and cocked his fist back, PTSD kicked in (flight at this point wasn't in the cards) and I gave him a lesson in 'why you shouldn't grab a veteran who suffers from PTSD' and when people swarmed I let off, and walked away. I walked back to my car and he confronted me again- I told him I didn't want to fight anymore and I was done, tried my best to defuse the situation, he came at me and the fight was pretty much back on. I will try my best to never let something like that happen ever again, but it's not easy for me to "just walk away" when someone provokes me past the point of no return (IE: I don't have a flight sense anymore- thanks Uncle Sam

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