lost my cat and best friend today

[iamhunter]

I feel what your going through.

It's been about a year since my dog (a border colly) died. He had stomach cancer and refused to eat his dog food.

So we bought him hamburger's from wendy's.

He ate that for a while, and when he finally refused to eat that, we bought him steak.

After he refused to eat that, I knew it was over.

We just let him rest for the following days until one night I woke up to the most horrible noise I've ever heard in my life.

I found him laying on my bedroom floor, yelping, seizing, and foaming at the mouth.

I laid down with him for a while, hoping it would just end, but after about 20 minutes I felt like it was cruel to keep him in pain.

It was close to 1 in the morning and all vet's were closed, so I grabbed the .22, drove down out into the desert, and shot him in the heart.

It was one of the hardest, most heartbreaking things I've ever done

I know how bad it hurts to lose something you love like that. But in time it will heal. I still haven't gotten another pet, but I think I finally will in the coming year or to.

[Brassie]

Sorry for your loss., When we lost our 4 yr old yellow lab to a heart attack, I said no more animals, but wife ended up getting not one but two cats, I thought I hated cats until they became part of the family. I would be heart broken if the 23lb Mainecoon "Dean" and his litter mate "Mia" were gone.

[jc121]

I just want to thank all of you for your kind words and helpfull thoughts.

everything I did today reminded me of her and its hard not to be emotional thinking you have your best friend who trusted her life to me. I held her while she was being given the shot and she was just looking at me like I trust you with my live. she just became limp and laid her down gently looking her in the eyes and talking to her how much I loved her with a prayer also. I feel I betrayed our trust we had but kept my promise to always be by her side to the end.

will pick up her ashes on friday mourning.

Thank you again friends

[theGinsue]

You didn't betray her.

When Snickers (I told you about her yesterday) died two years ago, it came on unexpectedly. She died of a blood clot. We got her to the vet as soon as we noticed she wasn't acting right. She was in a great deal of pain (the heart pushing blood against the clot is painful). She was scared (for those who question this statement, if you know your cat, you can tell when they are scared). Her passing wasn't gentle or graceful. It was horrible, but at least it was relatively quick. I expect that I will be buried with her ashes.

iamhunter: I'm terribly sorry to hear of your loss too. People may argue that I'm using the word improperly, but I think ending the misery of a friend and family member - a pet, is one of the BRAVEST things a person can do. To have to do it yourself must have been horrendous. Bless you!

[pr1ncess45]

My condolences go out to you.I know what it's like to lose part of your family.My family has lost 2 dogs one was hit by a car and the other was stolen.I can relate it is hard but time does heal.

[Fentonite]

So sorry for your loss. Like many who have posted, I've been there, and it's terrible. Ending her suffering was an act of true friendship, loyalty and kindness - don't feel guilty.

Shortly after we had to put down our old-girl, I had a photo of her turned into a hand-drawn pencil sketch. It's framed on our wall, and is a neat reminder of lots of good memories. (I took a pic, but it doesn't seem right to post a pic of her on your thread). I'll PM you a link to the website.

Hang in there.

[funkfool]

...laid her down gently looking her in the eyes and talking to her how much I loved her with a prayer...

You were there for her.
And cared enough to do the difficult thing.
You stuck by her to the end.

[bellavite1]

Sucks.

[rondog]

My condolences and sympathies, JC. I know it'll have to happen to my Beagles someday too, and I dread the time.

[BPTactical]

You were there for her.
And cared enough to do the difficult thing.
You stuck by her to the end.

This-
You made the hardest of choices out of love for your companion.
She went to sleep and you were her last vision and thought.
You cared enough not to see her in pain.
That is not betrayal by any means.
That is true love.

We should all be as blessed to pass in the arms of the one that loves us most.